ever heard such baffling rhymes?

cooler persona?

i love everything about this artist. especially his alter egos. 

so, ive always been a fan of A Tribe Called Quest, especially Q-Tip.

His last album, The Renaissance is one of my faves.  he recently released Kamaal the Abstract, which i havent gotten to listen to extensively but i am liking the new vibe. much more band influence. check it out

Paranoia posed in saintly rows outside my windows
Cacophonous caws, bacterial ponds flap
Pavement moans

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Caustic alarmed cavernous psalms
They swing from your lips then tie your tongue up like you asked them to
Out come the gaunt ghosts of your thoughts
They're shrieking in prose and breathing rhymelessness archaic gloom
Cover your mouth, sound trickles down and drips from your chin
Drooling vibrations in an empty room

There just pull your eyelids down they're begging for your sleep
Find yourself in white stairwell a trembling voice now speaks
Whirring back and forth from firework to figure eight
Now your trembling hands don't seem so hard to make behave

Paranoia posed in saintly rows outside my windows
Single filed piled while flashing smiles network imposed

Dumbstruck and shoved oxygen snuffed then beg for embrace
Passion like cancer has a wandering eye
Caskets for hands bury your plans right next to your songs
When t-shirt vending is how you spend your time
Out come the gaunt ghosts of your thoughts
They're shrieking in prose and breathing rhymelessness archaic gloom
Cover your mouth, sound trickles down and drips from your chin
Drooling vibrations in an empty room

There, just pull your eyelids down they're begging for some sleep
Find yourself in white stairwell a trembling voice now speaks
Whirring back and forth from firework to figure eight
Now your trembling hands don't seem so hard to make behave

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Caustic alarmed cavernous psalms they swing from your lips
Then tie your tongue up like you asked them to

Out come the gaunt ghosts of your thoughts
They're shrieking in prose and breathing rhymlessness archaic gloom

OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH
OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH

enough said?

i made a list of goals last new year, i think. 

i just found it on my facebook page and am reading through them thinking of when i wrote them, what was going on in my life, where i was, who i spent my days with, who i was, etc. 

i've changed. 

quite a bit. 

i have very few commonalities with the person i was on Dec. 30, 2008.  i have few of the same friends, even the people i would have called my closest friends.  i express myself very differently since then. i paint, draw, create, write, even dance ridiculously poorly.  i left the school i had attended my entire life for TCC and homeschooling.  i am not a Union basketball player. i am a soon to be NOAH basketball player.  i've grown up a lot, made difficult decisions, turned pages, and learned unexplainable lessons.  i can see the growth i've made. i can also see the digression. 

i'm not the person i expected to be.  i would say i'm headed into a much greater mystery than i would have expected to. i would have said i knew what i wanted to be, do, live, seek. any more i don't have a clue in the world what i want to do, or where i want to go. which i think has its own highs and lows.  i have learned myself, much more lately, through intentional and non intentional study.  

i feel myself shape. its almost like i have a me that is tucked, hidden in the darkness, who is slowly, constantly getting closer to the outer light due to every occurrence. every song i hear, thing i see, beautiful or hideous, person i meet, and thing i do helps rip away my layers to reveal more of myself to me.  

sometimes these revelations reveal new passions. i have started painting, drawing, and writing more music lately.  these are things i never expected to really try or be good at, but i love doing them and have found passion for these expressions that have shaped my person and given me new outlets. 

sometimes these revelations reveal doubts. what if i'm doing the wrong thing? what if who i think God is, isn't real? what if there is something wrong with me that makes things not work out with friends, girls? what if i don't turn out to be good enough in skill to do what i want and love? 

i want to recognize each moment of my life as important and worthy of living, remembering, and learning from. 

maybe that should just be my goal.

i want to make it count. 

G